RAZZILDAZZUL

(from a 2008 Harjuku store Laforet Spring advert..how fucking killer dandy is that?)

cawz what is a monster if not the most flourishing outcast?

COUGH COUGH COUGH

& they all come out, dancing with wet teeth and tumbling rustled-fuss petals, they make their final work of shaking off a whole day, stomping thickly and swinging until these monsters become enveloping slumber..so they can sweetly climb into dreams. well, rest sweet monsters, rest

• writing down words and phrases you like for sound’s sake until they weave & writhe and fall alive
• making ridiculous sandwiches. RIDICULOUS. then eating them with someone
• trying to dye my hair with beetroot juice again..they were right, it really doesn’t work, does it?
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• The Faithful Gardener by Clarissa Pinkola Estes – a really beautiful piece, as is always the case with Estes.

“You’re growing a what?”
“I’m growing a forest in the city, an urban forest.”
People went away scratching their heads.
A village inspector stopped by. He said he had heard that someone in the neighborhood was building a forest in their backyard.
“Doesn’t look like a forest,” he said.
“Wait,” I said.
“Might be illegal,” he said.
“As you can see at this point it is only a forest in the air.”
“Hmmf,” he said.

• I also found this awesome interview..isn’t it amazing when women make something together? And dude Jessye Norman’s voice, if you get the chance, is beautiful..i love listening to her sing Satie. thank god.

ALSO i’ve found the best way to ‘not take yourself too seriously’ is by going against your ideals/habits/morals and being subversive to what you think is your character, even if it’s just in the slightest thing each day or you could brainstorm on ideas you wouldn’t usually carry out. people try to be subversive and independent of their own culture, which is awesome, but it’s not really working if you’re a slave to your own chosen lifestyle. even if it’s in new words you use, clothes you won’t wear, skills you learn that your not expected to. that’s the point. know that the next day can be allowed to be more adventurous if you can’t even predict what you’ll want to be tomorrow. also, this way you abandon the lazy ease of accidentally becoming some typical ‘good’ if you live out with contradictions and impulses and messiness for something heavenly.

it’s the most fun in the world if you can get into the hang of challenging yourself. & hilarious

• gypsy swing is SO very fun to dance to

AND SO IS THIS!!! .. i love love love Killaqueens, i’m really excited about them and hope they have all the success and magic they can get

awesome awesome AWESOME

• BELLY LAUGH
• feasting in love swimming, long journeys, looking skywards, eating foods you know are magic tricks; there are so many magic tricks.

I’ve been thinking a lot about sensory indulgence, recently. people have always loved putting on a show and setting up an environment ..think of all your favourite smells, textures, activities, tastes, music, images, films..etc (and if you’re not overly excited by them think about it then find the hell out what you like!) & they can often be medicinal with themes and phases..if you feel like you’re in limbo and need lightness and purity there’ll be certain shared ‘elements’ through these that you can change your environment give you even keel. Fo Example: ! :

sometimes need overdoses of…

varying whites together,  only very minimalist noises or sounds or drones or piano, walking walking walking, early hours, lots of water and maybe lost in translation in the background and often (typically) japanese food, lots of clean tasting tea and breathing..sometimes i crave dancing and red and cooking and love with rich tastes, laughing, golden coloured scents and hip hop, rumi and having paint on my hands really EATING and wine wine wine. some things consistently help me..like lillies. sometimes we need to be ridiculous, even superficial, and flamboyant but that needs someone who knows you superwell like abby(AMAZEBRAIN), & ylang ylang burning in the background with orgasmic opera, shoooess and wigs, bach remedies and flower flavoured cake/tea/everything, feeling mad hatterish and reading funny e.e cummings and silly haikus like..

On the grounds, fresh game.
On the new gamekeeper, fresh
Lady Chatterley.

D.H Lawrence

hehehehe! & some things are rare but very needed, like black. you see what i mean? i don’t know, i just feel like sensory setup enhances everything and, if needed, helps so much and even works well for parties too.

• then again, having said that…since we’re addicted to sensory experience, when deprived of it our mind compensates.. (a little like sleep-deprivation induced day dreams)

so when you do the Ganzfeld Test, you hallucinate! and all with a ping pong ball and a radio driving out white noise

“a clearing in a forest [Lichtung], a place bathed in bright sun-shine, and the trunks of trees around. A feeling of a tranquil summer afternoon in a forest, so quiet, so peaceful. And then, suddenly, a young woman passed by on a bicycle, very fast, she crossed the visual field from the right to the left, with her blond long hair waving in the air. The image of the entire scene was very clear, with many details, and yes, the colours were very vivid.”

Cortex is very cool. i for one would like to hallucinate 90s kate moss with power-hair BEASTially riding a gigantic panda..for god’s sake! why not!

Hilariously true on the 2000…oh the shame!

i’m in love with this bird, paradisaea raggiana (from the bird of paradise family)  feathers are incredible, and sad they’re so rare

‘Shatter my heart, and create a new room for a limitless love’ – rumi

Hope you’re all golden! stay gold! I AM WRITING GOLD LETTERED LETTERS TO YOU

blessings blessings blessings